Green Is My Statement

by Sofia Blue
Apr 25, 2017
2 min read

The first person I showed this blog to, my husband, asked me - "But why is the site green and not blue, as in Sofia Blue?" He made me think...

Yes, I want it green. I don't want Sofia to be blue anymore. I chose this nickname on purpose but created the website in green subconsciously. And this is a statement! If you are reading this now, it probably means you don't want to be blue anymore either. We want to be green! Like when kids are young and there is no weight on their shoulders yet...

I actually never had that. I was never green. I was born blue. Like that book only that I have never been abused and unwanted. However, sometimes I think it is good to know where your anger and sadness come from, rather than to have it all going well while wanting to kill yourself at the age of 8. This is not to say one is worse than the other. In any case they share one thing - being so blue until there is only black.

That's why I want to reach green before it is too late. Maybe that is why I am also starting with dark green. Maybe one day I will change my blog to very bright cheerful green. One thing I know, though, I now want to try and get there. You see, depression gave me perspective - the disease of my brain opened my mind. What a contradiction, I know. That is what still keeps me going, knowing that I have at least a few seeds of green in me. I want to share them with others like me but also totally selfishly, if you will, I want to get help plant them.

I hope this blog becomes something I regularly do...

With love,

Sofia Blue